POWERS OF MANIFESTATION - FOCUSING ON THE FEELING AND NOT THE STORY.

Once I left corporate life (got fired) and entered my “spiritual journey” (went to a yoga teacher training,  realized I had very little self awareness at all) my ability to “see the future” became realized. Let me explain. 

The moment  I realized I had to pick the things I loved and turn one of them into a career (not sure what the “ah ha” moment was, I just knew I needed to love my career) I peeled back the onion until I got to hockey, and yoga. 

I asked myself, what do I feel best doing? What brings me the most joy no matter how many times I do it, I still love it?

Hockey seemed like a confusing/unattainable path but yoga felt like a hell yes. Something I loved doing no matter what day of the week or mood I was in, I loved how yoga made me feel. 

Fast forward to present day and I’ve been able to create a LOT of stories around how my life would look, some came true, California, yoga retreat company, traveling to Bali… 

Many didn’t / haven’t, find a partner, get great at surfing, build a six-figure business... 

When I moved to San Diego I originally lived in a tiny apartment that was essentially a triplex with neighbors inconsiderate to all the five senses. I had two back-to-back, um, less than ideal roommates and finally I decided I wanted my life to look different. I got out my journal and wrote down that I wanted to live in a house, with a fenced in backyard, a vegan roommate who was in my mind just agreeable, and less than awful. A washing machine, a driveway, a quiet neighborhood with nature. This is what my mind decided I wanted to manifest. 

Less than a week later I was looking for a roommate online and insead came across a listing for a room for rent in a beautiful house. It was in my budget, it was quiet and clean, the roommate was vegan, everything on my list was checked. I showed up to see the room with dogs in tow, they played with the roommate and I started making plans to move out of my apartment. 

In the time that my roommate and I lived together, it was, for lack of a better word, neutral. We didn’t do a whole lot together, went out once to the air show, ate occasionally while in each other’s vicinity, but it was a co-existence more than a co-creation. Once Covid hit, it was clear that we wouldn’t be a long term fit and I had a strange rush of emotions. 

On the one hand, he wasn’t my bff but he was a GOOD dude, vegan and mostly considerate. Basically exactly what I asked for, no more, no less. On the other hand, now I was going to have to probably find a total stranger to live under the same room.

Instead of writing out a list of characteristics (I always find it funny that that word has character in it and that character can mean someone shrewd or integrity, valor etc.) I wrote out how I wanted to FEEL living at home with someone every day. I wanted to feel supported, seen, appreciated and even loved. I wanted to feel like my dogs were safe and I could depend on my roommate and he/she could depend on me. I wanted it to be a co-living situation, a co-creation that felt like supporting a greater cause of a happy, clean and safe home. 

I left out what the person should look, sound, or smell like. I left out any detail that might make me want to go any other way than how I wanted to feel. In less than six hours after I posted the room for rent I had found my next roommate, Ria. We met in the backyard ate vegan food and talked about spirituality, relationships, yoga, San Diego, how we both had lived much different lives in New York and most importantly our true values and the ways we wanted to feel in a co-living, co-creation. It was an instant match. 

The thing that I forgot when making my initial living situation list and the reason I’m writing this fun, albeit long story, is that two things can happen when we ask the universe for what we “want” - One, we don’t get what we want. We’re bitter, and disappointed. 

Or two we get allllll the things we want, house, money, car, travel, community, purpose, perfect handstand =)  just to realize we never wanted those things in the first place.

How we feel, is everything. 

I repeat, how we feel is everything. 

The universe is wonderfully wise. When we are in alignment with our purpose, and especially I find it when my purpose serves others, we begin to attract things into our world. Focusing on the feeling takes the burden off of how you will get there. It removes the anticipation and potential disappointment of things not being “exactly how they should” and keeps our momentum towards feeling happy, joyous and abundant. 

I invite you to look at just how much joy the things that take up most of your time bring you. What service does it provide in this world? The power of the energy of both those things is profound. Your happiness and ability to feel free depends on them =)

Below is Ria and our beautiful new home space, she even took the pups hiking while I was on retreat and took care of them all week!